Story of my life

On set yesterday, I found out that one of the veteran actors knew palmistry and could analyze names. The things he analyzed from my palm and name were freakishly accurate.

When he first took a look at my palm, he looked up at me with a sad expression on his face. I later found out that it was because he felt sorry for me, as he could read that my life has been fraught with problems since birth. He then predicted that only when I find a certain man, can my life become stabilized and less rough. However, this man is not the ideal man of my dreams. He also read that I would not live a very long live, because there is a lot of hatred and resentment pent up in my heart. My life lines can change though, if I am able to find a source of zen.

From my name, he analyzed that I had a good heart, but my kindness is often taken for granted. Also, I am very extreme, whereby sometimes I can be extremely quiet and reserved, while other times I can be extremely loud and active.

All these sound too much like my life. This guy didn't even know me personally!

He then told me that for some people who are more unfortunate than others, it could well be because of their names. He told me that when he was a teenager, he changed the strokes of his name, and luck has always been on his side till now.

At that moment, I seriously did consider changing my name as well, for there are far too many times I have felt too unhappy in my life. But on second thought, the happy moments I've had are countless too. True I've had a great many rough patches to overcome, but most times, either I've had true friends and loved ones who stood by me. or I learnt something important from the occasion that could benefit me for life.

Just like how my parents gave me my looks and whatever I have today, they gave me my name too. There has to be a reason why they gave me this name and why I am standing in these feet. Perhaps it's for me to tell my own story, the story of 刘慧娴。