Doodlejump

Recently, I have been very obsessed with an Iphone game called Doodlejump. It is by far one of the most addictive handphone games I have ever played in my life. Basically, it is all about a Doodle creature which hops from platform to platform and avoids obstacles which might cause its dear little life to terminate. Missing a platform means it dies too. So the higher it goes, the higher your high score is!

I have been hard at work trying to beat my good friend Felicia's high score of 27640, and I must say I just succeeded in doing so, at the grand high score of 28221!!!! Once upon a time, I never imagined that I could even reach a mere 20000, and was grateful to just go above 10000. But while my scores gradually increased as I improved in the game, I could not help but feel discontented with what I had and felt a strong need to top myself.

The bottomline is, is this my attitude towards other things in life too? If not, should it be?

I am not exactly doing superbly well in school, scraping by with Bs and a miraculous A- here and there. Sometimes I wish I had the motivation to study harder and get better grades just like how I play Doodlejump so hard. My parents are paying so much for my education, yet I am such a weakling, unable to even get out of bed in the morning to attend class.

One thing for sure is that I want to apply this Doodlejump attitude towards music. Currently, I am not. I am awfully lazy. I am lazy to practise my pathetic keyboard skills, lazy to practise my mediocre singing, and yet I want to sing in a band. I know that my greatest love in life is music. Then why am I wasting my skills and talents away by indulging in the horrendous sin of sloth?? Typing this down disgusts myself as I am exposing myself to myself.

Just like most other people, I live from day to day, unaware of the core of me, the core of my potential, and the core of my behaviour. I act like Doodlejump is the most important thing in the world when it is not. I neglect the things that are of utmost importance to me, such as my music, my studies, and my family. What is wrong with you Esther Low?? Get your life back together!

I need to get my life back together before it is not even there.